Join Me On My Journey

hey,
feelin a little low 2day or rough, was at party last night to celebrate an 18th, i had a great time except i felt that the boyfriend seemed to be avoiding me and was then told that he sometimes forgets all about me and that he forgets he has a girlfriend, thats somethin a girl always wants to hear, oh an apparently im annoyin wen im hyper an loud and just a annoyin wen i don't speak at all!!! i can't do anything right!!!. i have never flet so self concious before , now i am consatntly weary of everything i do, and how i look, its startin to wear me down, sometimes its nice to be made to feel special and really wanted instead of getting nothing, i don't want to say anythin because im worried im just over reactin an ill loose him, pathetic really but hey there you go. So stressed cant wait to get out of this hell hole and start a fresh at uni, on my own im goin crazy here god help me!!!!!!

hey this is my first time usin one of these, so bare with me. It won't be anythin interestin just me ranting but feel free to read an comment if you can.
Katie xx